By Fabienne Guererro
If Jesus had not given me the assurance regarding my eternal salvation, I would have despaired. The fact that He told me that His holy wounds would save me, sufficed to give me much hope, as I proceeded through my conversion.
Jesus is but Love and Mercy. He paid much in order to save my soul. I did not know that Satan was burning in hell and wanted everyone to burn with him (“The Devil who had led them astray was thrown into the pool of fire and sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet were. There they will be tormented day and night forever and ever” Rev. 20:10)
The Blessed Virgin Mary told me: “Satan’s hatred is within you.” Many times I felt his great hate toward all that was created by God. I saw how Satan and the fallen angels along with the damned attacked the souls in their hearts and their brains so as to destroy them. The worst part is that I could hear my soul saying: “Satan, I love you!” It was truly horrible! I was a decaying demon! The day when Jesus told me:
“You worship Satan,” I did not believe him. Now, I was facing the fact. My soul adored evil.
« My vanity and my rebelliousness had condemned me »
I was a worldly woman, seducer, always wooed and domineering. I said that I was a liberated woman but in fact I was chained to Lucifer. I saw the black chains with which Satan was binding me. They were large black chains. I also saw the devil with a pitchfork. He was all black, with a very mean look. The chains that I saw were all the sins that I had committed and that kept me linked to various demons of hell’s hierarchy. Only Jesus with His Precious Blood could cut these chains. If I had not confided in Jesus, I would have remained chained for all eternity and would have suffered the depths of torture in order to expiate my sins. That is why I thank Jesus millions of times for His sorrowful Passion that saved me from eternal hell. For all eternity, in thanksgiving, I will sing the praises of the great Mercy of God.
My rebellion began by listening to rock, the Beatles, ACDC, and the evil spirits of this bad music entered into me… and everywhere “Peace and love” was promoted. I used these words with some of my hippy friends. My interior rebellion led me to support homosexuality, divorce, common-law living, abortion. At that time, I had not realized that I was a great persecutor of Christ’s law, but you know, I was chained to the abyss and could not react any differently.
It is the light of Satan that is nothing other than darkness that inhabited me. God told me: “You are a great rebel.” I had to admit that it was true! If my mother had not prayed a lot for me and had not made sacrifices for my soul, I would, at this time, still be blinded by Lucifer’s light. Fasting and prayer greatly helped me to be delivered. Jesus explained that when I prayed, He prayed with me, in me, for my liberation.
The Blessed Virgin also asked me to do penance for laughing at words which I uttered that offended God. If you only knew the hatred that Satan bears towards each one of us, for God and for priests, it is terrible.
God told me: “Revere my priests.” Priests are the apple of the eyes of Jesus. Without priests, nobody would have access to Heaven because only they can provide us with the sacraments, and can open us to the Life of Christ and grant us forgiveness.
« My ascending from the abyss »
After these moments of interior suffering, Jesus raised me from the abyss by taking me back to Him and I felt his power remove me from this state of darkness, in which I was terrified of everything. He is more powerful than all the devils put together.
« Jesus and Mary give me counsels »
Jesus and Mary then spoke to me. The Blessed Virgin told me :
“You have offended my Immaculate Heart.”
“My Son died because of your sins.”
“You do not love the Cross enough.”
“When you are afraid, come into my arms.”
“Remain faithful to my Son.”
“Your life is mine.”
At that moment I understood that the most Blessed Virgin Mary wanted me to consecrate my entire life to her and serve her. To have me fully at her service, she asked me to remain simple, to ignore myself and to be sober in all things. The Blessed Virgin loves humility. She also made me know that she would always be my intercessor near God. When we pray to her and serve her, the Virgin Mary is always grateful.
In His great kindness, Jesus consoled me for having such a powerful spiritual experience.
With great charity He told me: “You are my great beauty.” I understood that He was speaking of my soul. I was surprised when He told me: “You need someone to take great care of you.” At that moment I understood that God was a real Father who watches over me for everything day and night. He then told me: “Begin by loving sincerely.” The Holy Spirit showed me that in fact I never in my life loved and the Blessed Virgin told me: “You do not like to share.” I then began to greet the poor at home; I nearly gave all my clothes away and I spent all my money for the needy. I no longer wanted to keep anything for myself and Jesus added: “Fear not giving everything away.”
I then heard the following words: “You are My total joy.” “You are mine.” “Think only of Me.” “Think of loving only Me.” “I will heal you.” “You bathe in my Blood.” “Give Me much love.” “Sin no more.” “Do not sell your soul to the devil.” “Betray me no more.” “Do not jest with Me.” (I was in the habit of jesting with God). “I love being feared.” (It is not about fearing Him but of fearing to offend Him because God is Holy. If we offend Him, we must confront His Justice, which is severe). “I am your only master.”
“I am the Way, the Truth and the Life.” “No longer wander away from Me.” “Elude the world.” “Elude men.” “Do not scoff at sinners.” “Love them all.” “Deny yourself.” “Divest yourself.” “Listen to My word, observe My commandments, observe the Sabbath.” (It is to say the day of the Lord). “I am the Son of God.” “I want you nearer to Me.” “Read the Bible.” “You are dear to Me.” I understood that God wanted me to be more intimate with Him while still respecting His great holiness.
He ended by saying:
“You do not imagine to what degree I love you.”
[resources: My Testimony]